The fear….

Working in the medical field has its ups and downs.  Positives and negatives.  One positive is that I know a lot about a lot of things.  

 

It is also a negative.

 

So, for the past several months I’ve noticed lumpier spots in my breasts.  Yes, breasts are fibrous, and larger breasts tend to be lumpier.  But these are different than my usual lumpiness.

“Why am I concerned?” you may ask.

Well, Back in 2007/2008 I had a lump that was a cause of concern.   I had to have an ultrasound and had several punch biopsies done.  Result:  Abnormal tissue that did not immediately present as malignant.  Plan:  Monitor for any changes.

Great.

Except I’ve had run-ins with many types of cancers over my short life.  Cervical, uterine, ovarian, skin multiple times, breast once already.  Sure, I joke about being lungs of liver next with my drinking and smoking habits, but it’s meant to be light and airy, even though it really conceals a fear I have.

I have a limited Family medical history as I am adopted, but I have a maternal aunt who had breast cancer and ovarian cancer, and skin cancer runs in the family.

Back to the present day.

I have several breast lumps that are firm almost hard and will wake me up in the middle of the night with level 8-9/10 stabbing pain that brings me to tears more often than not.  Being in the medical field and with my personal medical history, I know what this points to.

I have appointments this Thursday to get the full once over with PCP and specialists I regularly see.  (I missed an appointment in October with the move and all).  But I’ve started stressing out.

FNG has promised to go with me, which is majorly helpful, and I’m very grateful for.  I still have the fear.

 

Toning

Ok, so I’m not actually trying to lose weight.  However, I am trying to get healthy and toned.

What does that mean?

Well, it means:

  • taking the stairs when I can
  • going for short walks a few times everyday
  • eating throughout the day, not just one large meal
  • Drinking more water.
  • Being more active.

Ok, so Before camp I was 397 lbs. (mid-may 2012)

Latex Dress Early May 2012

Camp 2012, 06/02

After camp I was 392. (Early June 2012)

Mid June 2012

Last week I was 387.  (mid-june 2012)

Today I was 385.  I have muscle tone in my legs where previously I had excess jiggly.  Not the sexy jiggly, the floppy jiggly.

Sorry no pic.

If this path continues by Camp 2013 I’m gonna be built like a brick shithouse!

HAH!

 

All signs point to….Cancer?

This is kind of a “pass the time” post, and a post to make sure others keep up with their own health. So it’s only sexy insofar as living longer is sexy!

I have had a history of minor skin problems. I’m pasty as hell, so sun was always a concern to me. Add to this I have more than a few moles.

Well the first abnormal mole I had was at age 12. It was removed, then grown in a lab. The results were less than desirable. The mole appeared to be pre-cancerous. They removed a large chunk of skin.

Around age 16, I had another mole. Repeat process.

Over the past 11 years there were more moles and freckles and most were normal, nothing overly abnormal and anything that looked anything but textbook perfect was watched closely. Nothing ever amounted to anything.

This past weekend I noticed one of the “watches” did something a little weirder than usual…it had grown and changed colours. It was no longer smooth nor uniform in colour.

I immediately made an appointment to see a dermatologist. I wasn’t about to let this “wait and see”.

I go in have a discussion about the history of previous moles. Got stared at closely to see my other moles and freckles and whatnot.

Note: Sunscreen is AWESOME for keeping your skin young and moisturizers like cocoa butter help with scarring and keeping skin supple.

The doc looked at my mole and suggested that I have it biopsied, which is what I had thought when I made the appointment. With any luck they’ve got it all and that will be the end. Track records speaks otherwise…but we shall see.

Tuesday I call for the results.

Bottom line, know your body, intimately. Do not be afraid to see a professional if something is not right. It is for the best. I have thwarted the need for cancer treatment by being proactive about my health. Be sure to take care of yourselves.

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