Toning

Ok, so I’m not actually trying to lose weight.  However, I am trying to get healthy and toned.

What does that mean?

Well, it means:

  • taking the stairs when I can
  • going for short walks a few times everyday
  • eating throughout the day, not just one large meal
  • Drinking more water.
  • Being more active.

Ok, so Before camp I was 397 lbs. (mid-may 2012)

Latex Dress Early May 2012

Camp 2012, 06/02

After camp I was 392. (Early June 2012)

Mid June 2012

Last week I was 387.  (mid-june 2012)

Today I was 385.  I have muscle tone in my legs where previously I had excess jiggly.  Not the sexy jiggly, the floppy jiggly.

Sorry no pic.

If this path continues by Camp 2013 I’m gonna be built like a brick shithouse!

HAH!

 

ChipIn for my new space!

Ok, so I’ve started a ChipIn page to raise money piecemeal for my new space.  I’m trying to start a multi-use space to host kink demos, parties, and general chicanery.

Please Help!

http://starlitmeow.chipin.com/a-new-space

Loving

Ok, so the 200 Squat Challenge Post was actually a somewhat reactionary post to some things going on in my life as late. 

  1. My mother and I haven’t been speaking for some time now.  Again.  It happened after the Northeast Earthquake.  We reconciled tentatively until the hurricane (Irene?) where she got all super passive agressive again.  We haven’t spoken since except for a mass email I sent to family regarding not moving to CA and a thank you note I received for sending her flowers for her bday.
  2. California.  I love you.  I hate you.  So we got a “No”, but they are still interested to a degree, so we’re somewhat in limbo again.
  3. Work.  It’s like the School posts I made.  Exactly.  Except now I’m getting paid to deal with this crap.  Although not enough.
  4. Weight battles.  This will get it’s own bit below.
  5. Relationship battles.  Might get it’s own post.
  6. General Malaise. Will probably also get it’s own post.

Ok, so weight battles.  M has decided that he didn’t want to by bigger pants so he started to alter his diet some and has lost some pretty considerable amounts of weight.  I’m happy that he’s decided to be healthier, however, it’s been rough going.  M is a high-functioning Aspie, which sometimes leads to him not always catchign on to how something he says might affect soemone.  He knows I’ve had weight issues most of my life, mostly stemming from the wonderfully supportive (sic) family o’ mine.  So, the issue really began to rear it’s ugly head when he would say “Oh, let’s not have dinner at the restaurant we normally eat at b/c it’s too heavy,” or “Do you REALLY want an appetizer?  That’s a lot of food.”

He meant well, but that’s a far nicer way of saying things my parents used to say.  I was ok at first, but it kept eating at me.  I’ve been staying at the same weight range for most of the summer.  I’ve definitely lost some weight, but I hit my plateau.  I think it was mostly stress; between work and CA, I’ve had my share lately. 

Now, some of you might read this and go, WHAT?!  So, to pre-empt that, I still love myself.  I love me as I am, and my main plan is still to tone muscles rather than lose weight, but because of the things M would say I was freaking out in my head and starting paying way too much attention to my weight rather than how I feel.  I was pretty depressed for the past month or 2. 

I decided to just stop. 

M didn’t mean anything against me with his comments, but the combined stress and monotony and general malaise he and I had been experiencing led to a lot of issues including butting heads more than necessary, and lack of sex, and not going out and being bums; none of whihc helped my brain resist the spiraling of depression.  He really does still like me and want me and is attracted to me, but do you think my brain thought that?  Nope.

My brain doesn’t really factor compliments and criticisms in when it tallies my self-worth and self-esteem.  However certain comments can make it twitch a bit.  The funny thing is that even though I was depressed, I still had amazingly high self-esteem, I was just not my super bubbly self.

Ok, enough for one day.  Although in the future, I will be posting about nuymbers 5 and 6.

Personality Test Results

Jung Test Results

Extroverted (E) 63.41% Introverted (I) 36.59%
Intuitive (N) 52.63% Sensing (S) 47.37%
Thinking (T) 83.87% Feeling (F) 16.13%
Judging (J) 54.84% Perceiving (P) 45.16%

Your type is: ENTJ

ENTJ – “Field Marshall”. The basic driving force and need is to lead. Tend to seek a position of responsibility and enjoys being an executive. 1.8% of total population.

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Enneagram Test Results

The Enneagram is a personality system which divides the entire human personality into nine behavioral tendencies, this is your score on each…

type score type behavior motivation

9 25 I must maintian a peaceful and easygoing environment to be happy.
7 24 I must be high and entertained to be happy.
8 24 I must be strong and in control to be happy.
1 21 I must be perfect and good to be happy.
3 21 I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.

Enneagram Test Results

Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||| 46%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 4 Sensitivity || 10%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||| 50%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||| 43%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 80%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 80%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%

Your main type is 9
Your variant is sexual

 

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Variant

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Sexual education for your iPhone!

http://prmac.com/release-id-19757.htm

Texas Rabbi Creates Sex Ed AppHouston, TX Dec 22, 2010 in Education

[prMac.com] Houston, Texas – “An app that grows lesions is sure to get a young person’s attention” says Rabbi Amy Weiss, a Houston rabbi and executive director of Initiative for Jewish Women (IJW). Weiss is the creator of LoveSmarts, an entertaining iPhone app complete with an STI (Sexually Transmitted Infections) killing game to educate people about contraception and sexually transmitted diseases all in the name of tikkun olam, repairing the world.

LoveSmarts is a four part app that provides concise information about sexually transmitted infections and their symptoms, method of treatment and prevention; nine forms of contraception, cost, availability and effectiveness; a link with the Princeton University’s emergency contraception directory by zip code and a game that has a variety of viruses and bacterial infections that a player must kill with the correct “weapon” (antibiotics by injection or pills or topical creams or pills. The LoveSmarts app is available for $.99 through iTunes. Follow LoveSmarts on Facebook.

LoveSmarts is part of There’s Only 1U, the only medically accurate sexuality program taught within a framework of Jewish values. The Initiative for Jewish Women, creator and provider of the program feels strongly that knowledge is power and people 15-25 need to have private, fast access to medically accurate information. In addition to the app, IJW holds overnight retreats for Jewish teens ages 15-18 and offers puberty education for younger students.

Device Requirements:

iPhone, iPod touch, and iPad

Requires iOS 3.1.2 or later (iOS 4.0 Tested)

4.4 MB

Pricing and Availability:LoveSmarts 1.0 is only $0.99 USD (or equivalent amount in other currencies) and available worldwide exclusively through the App Store in the Education category.

LoveSmarts 1.0Purchase and DownloadScreenshotApp IconIJW is a non-profit organization that provides multi-generational programming for liberal Jewish women in Houston, Texas. In addition to sexuality programming, IJW focuses on mentoring younger Jewish women, both professionally and Jewishly and Undies for Everyone, an annual drive to collect new underwear and socks for disadvantaged elementary school children. IJW’s work has a strong focus on tikkun olam, repairing the world.

Copyright (C) 2010 IJW. All Rights Reserved. Apple, the Apple logo, iPhone, iPod and iPad are registered trademarks of Apple Inc. in the U.S. and/or other countries.

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Rabbi Amy Weiss

Executive Director

713-398-5555

 

Like Warm Apple Pie

Original Recipe:  http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Aunt-Carols-Apple-Pie-2/Detail.aspx

Ingredients

  • 2 pounds Granny Smith apples
  • 1 cup white sugar
  • 1/2 cup brown sugar
  • 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
  • 2 tablespoons butter
  • 1 tablespoon white sugar
  • 1 recipe pastry for a 9 inch double crust pie

Directions

  1. Peel and slice apples. Toss with sugars, cinnamon and flour. Set aside.
  2. Roll crust to make slightly larger to fit 10-inch glass pie pan. Fit bottom crust in pie pan. Turn in apple mixture and dot with butter. Put crust on top and crimp edges of crust together.
  3. Wet hands with water and dampen top of pie. Sprinkle with additional sugar. Puncture top of pie with fork so pie will vent.
  4. Bake for 15 minutes at 450 degrees F (230 degrees C), reduce heat to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) and continue baking for about 45 minutes more, until crust is golden brown. It’s a good practice to place a piece of aluminum foil slightly larger than the pie under the pie plate to catch overflows. Serve warm.

My version:

Ingredients

  • 1 pound Cortland apples
  • 1 pound McIntosh apples
  • 1 cup white sugar
  • 1 cup brown sugar
  • 3 teaspoons ground cinnamon
  • 2 teaspoons cardamom
  • 1/2 teaspoon nutmeg
  • small handful all-purpose flour
  • 10 tablespoons butter
  • 1 egg beaten
  • 1 recipe pastry for a 9 inch double crust pie

Directions

  1. Slice apples. Toss with sugars, cardamom, nutmeg, cinnamon and flour. Set aside.
  2. Roll crust to fit 9-inch glass pie pan. Fit bottom crust in pie pan. Turn in apple mixture and dot with butter at regular intervals. Put crust on top and crimp edges of crust together.
  3. Brush top of pie with beaten egg.
  4. Bake for 15 minutes at 450 degrees F (230 degrees C), reduce heat to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) and continue baking for about 45 minutes more, until crust is golden brown. It’s a good practice to place a piece of aluminum foil slightly larger than the pie under the pie plate to catch overflows. Serve warm with fresh vanilla ice cream.

Pie Crust Recipe

In a food processor: Combine 1 1/4 cups flour, 1/8 teaspoon salt and 1/2 cup cold butter or margarine. While processing, add 2 to 4 tablespoons ice water. When dough forms a ball, remove and either roll out for pie or wrap in plastic wrap and chill until ready to use. If you want a baked pie shell, bake at 450 degrees F for 12 to 15 minutes.

 

Beige Block 3, or “Stroganoff”

The Original – http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Stroganoff/Detail.aspx

Ingredients

1 pound ground beef
1/2 cup chopped onion
1 tablespoon all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon paprika
1 (10.75 ounce) can condensed cream of mushroom soup
1 cup sour cream
8 ounces macaroni

Directions

In a large skillet over medium heat, saute the meat and onions for 10 minutes, or until the meat is browned and the onion is tender. Stir in the flour, salt and paprika. Then add the mushroom soup, mix well and cook, uncovered, for 20 minutes.

Reduce heat to low and add the sour cream, stirring well and allowing to heat through. Cover and set this mixture aside.

Cook the egg noodles according to package directions. Drain the water from the noodles and pour the meat mixture over the noodles.

My version:

1-2 tablespoons bacon grease
2-2.5 pounds cubed stew beef
1/2 onion, diced
2 small handfuls flour, approx 1/4-1/3 cup
3-4 teaspoon salt
2-3 teaspoon paprika
1 teaspoon saffron
1/2 teaspoon red cayenne pepper
1/2 teaspoon chili powder
1 teaspoon fresh minced garlic
1 (10.75 ounce) can condensed cream of mushroom soup with roasted garlic
1 cup sour cream
1 bag egg noodles

Directions

In a large skillet over medium heat, saute the meat and onions and garlic in about a tablespoon of bacon grease  until the meat is browned (be sure to dry the beef or it will not brown) and the onion is tender. Stir in the flour and spices. Then add the mushroom soup, mix well and cook, uncovered, for 20 minutes.

Reduce heat to low and add the sour cream, stirring well and allowing to heat through. Cover and set this mixture aside.

Cook the egg noodles according to package directions. Drain the water from the noodles and pour the meat mixture over the noodles, mixing well to combine. Allow to sit for 10 minutes to thicken. Serve with crusty garlic bread for extra awesomeness.

I’m thinking about making this with marinated beef next time. Not sure what to marinate with, but I will figure it out.

Holiday cards

I am sending cards this year only to those who request it.

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Raped at the Gate…

I just got my first Freedom pat. I was happy that they were being non-discriminatory about it, they picked every fourth person or so. They DID seem to be annoyed that i refused the scanner.

i am however glad that i didn’t pack like i had planned because I must have gotten the most polite and embarassed and vanilla TSA agent ever. I joked with her the whole time and it diffused the tension a bit. Right before getting patted down, one of the other TSA agents recognized me from that infernal school.

All in all it was not a bad experience. if I got a disgruntled TSA agent I may have had a worse time. but honestly it was not that bad.

i wonder how it will be different when we head to Spain.

Sexually Transmitted Glitter

So, today is World Aids Day. I spend a lot of today reminding people that sexual health is important. This extends not only to being tested and proactive, but also to being free to explore and having freedom of sexual rights. Get tested, and get tested often, but also test your limits and try new things.

This brings me to the title of this post.

It is a follow-up to https://ladycyanide.wordpress.com/2010/12/01/it-hurts-so-good/.

So, as mentioned in my previous post, I was fairly horny when I got home. The boy had been home awhile and I walked in, dropped my stuff and announced, “I’m horny. I demand sexings!” I walk into the living room and the boy is snuggling the dog on the couch and watching the World of warcrack video how-to for the newly added plants versus zombies minigame.

He goes, “So, you are saying i should stop watching and come love on you?”

Reply, “Yes, you should stop watching your WoW video and come get naked with me.”

Boy pauses video and comes and gets naked with me. He asks if he should get a towel.

Now, for those of you who haven’t heard the stories, I can be a rather prolific ejaculator on occasion. I have ejaculated over the boy’s shoulder while he was kneeling in front of me nearly to full height (so that puts him between 4 and 5 feet tall on knees). I’ve also soaked through a really nice hotel mattress, to the point it was puddling on the floor beneath.

I said yes, he asks, 1 towel or 2. I said 1..

He proceeds to give me some really awesome lovin’, cut short only by the fact that when we actually began penetration, his ingrown toe (which has been acting up for a few days) started to bother him….so he, being the super awesome boyfriend he is, went back to going down on me.

Verdict: YES, I was very horny. Very.
Verdict, the second: Sexings are VERY good.
Verdict, the third: I should have used 2 towels.
Verdict, the fourth: I have sexually transmitted glitter to my boyfriend.

Yes, during our crazy humping I managed to transmit several bits of glitter from my luscious form to his. This became a real life re-tweet tweet. I’ve also made it a hashtag.

Personally, I think there needs to be more sexually transmitted glitter, it’s much safer than other sexually transmitted things, unless it gets in your eye and scratches your cornea. OUCH.

So, remember:

  • Get tested, get tested often.
  • Try new and amazing things.
  • Use the hashtag “#SexuallyTransmittedGlitter”

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